One thing I'm grateful for:
November 28, 2014
One thing I learned today: This is a new version of getting sober.
One thing I'm grateful for:
One thing I'm grateful for:
November 27, 2014
One thing I learned today: I can cook the SHIT out of a turkey. RIP Young Lean.
One thing I'm grateful for: Chosen family.
One thing I'm grateful for: Chosen family.
November 26, 2014
One thing I learned today: Butterflies are bullshit. ;)
One thing I'm grateful for: A break. Some downtime.
One thing I'm grateful for: A break. Some downtime.
November 25, 2014
One thing I learned today: Regular life is probably a little scarier to me than "real" problems.
One thing I'm grateful for: A killer workout.
One thing I'm grateful for: A killer workout.
November 24, 2014
One thing I learned today: Now that my mind is somewhat stabilized, time to re-focus on my physical health. Because damn I let things slide.
One thing I'm grateful for: CLEANING HOUSE!
One thing I'm grateful for: CLEANING HOUSE!
November 23, 2014
One thing I learned today: I'm not doing as badly as I think.
One thing I'm grateful for: A constant stream of good conversation with friends all day, and a fridge full of nutritious & delicious food.
One thing I'm grateful for: A constant stream of good conversation with friends all day, and a fridge full of nutritious & delicious food.
November 22, 2014
One thing I learned today: I may play a bigger hand in my situations than I've been willing to admit.
One thing I'm grateful for: A nice favor from my parents.
One thing I'm grateful for: A nice favor from my parents.
November 21, 2014
One thing I learned today: Sometimes I may need to rest more than I want to. :-/
One thing I'm grateful for: Beatz.
One thing I'm grateful for: Beatz.
November 20, 2014
One thing I learned today: Sleep is REALLY helpful. So is avoiding caffeine. And sugar. And grains/starchy carbs. Nothing shocking, but all way more important than it used to be.
One thing I'm grateful for: Several, actually - what a difference a day makes. A certain element, an unexpected check-up, some surprise motivation, and knowing some people were thinking of me.
One thing I'm grateful for: Several, actually - what a difference a day makes. A certain element, an unexpected check-up, some surprise motivation, and knowing some people were thinking of me.
November 19, 2014
One thing I learned today: I have to do more to manage this.
One thing I'm grateful for: Not much today.
One thing I'm grateful for: Not much today.
November 17, 2014
One thing I learned today: You still need to do all the work. The only difference is you might get to do it with your hands untied. It's still hard.
One thing I'm grateful for: The patient who told me I'd be a really good doctor because I knew how to talk to people.
One thing I'm grateful for: The patient who told me I'd be a really good doctor because I knew how to talk to people.
November 16, 2014
One thing I learned today: Well, this is real.
One thing I'm grateful for: A clinician, a friend and a shred of humor.
One thing I'm grateful for: A clinician, a friend and a shred of humor.
November 15, 2014
One thing I learned today: My brain is trying to kill me.
One thing I'm grateful for: My BPPP's.
One thing I'm grateful for: My BPPP's.
November 14, 2014
One thing I learned today: Be careful what you wish for, I guess.
One thing I'm grateful for: Some definitiveness & a sense of humor.
One thing I'm grateful for: Some definitiveness & a sense of humor.
November 13, 2014
One thing I learned today: Never go to someone who doesn't take insurance - EVER again. Anyone who tells you that it's worth it because only they can really help you is a SNAKE.
One thing I'm grateful for: My kindred psych soul - thank goodness we met!
One thing I'm grateful for: My kindred psych soul - thank goodness we met!
November 12, 2014
One thing I learned today: Stop procrastinating. Just don't do it anymore. Please.
One thing I'm grateful for: FREEDOM.
One thing I'm grateful for: FREEDOM.
November 11, 2014
One thing I learned today: I can be incredibly ruthless when I want to be.
One thing I'm grateful for: The many veterans who have so bravely served our country.
One thing I'm grateful for: The many veterans who have so bravely served our country.
November 10, 2014
One thing I learned today:
One thing I'm grateful for:
That I inadvertently got a second opinion, and some validation, tonight. Laypeople spewing pseudoscience won't ever make me doubt myself again when I've heard it that clearly said by a doctor at the best psychiatric facility in the world. Thank you. Thank you a thousand times over.
"You almost certainly have a mild form of bipolar II with predominant depression."
One thing I'm grateful for:
"Of the four treatment modalities you've undergone, which have you found most helpful?"
"...probably medication actually. Without it I feel like everything else would be kind of moot..."
Glancing up from writing - "Well of course it would be. You have a physical illness." - and right back to scribbling notes, as if it were the simplest thing in the world.
That I inadvertently got a second opinion, and some validation, tonight. Laypeople spewing pseudoscience won't ever make me doubt myself again when I've heard it that clearly said by a doctor at the best psychiatric facility in the world. Thank you. Thank you a thousand times over.
November 9, 2014
One thing I learned today: I just don't have space or energy for any sort of negative influence right now. I shouldn't feel guilty about that.
One thing I'm grateful for: An incredibly interesting display of technological creativity that reminded me of how much I need to step away from technology.
One thing I'm grateful for: An incredibly interesting display of technological creativity that reminded me of how much I need to step away from technology.
November 8, 2014
One thing I learned today: I'm not thaaaat into meditation.
One thing I'm grateful for: See above.
One thing I'm grateful for: See above.
November 7, 2014
One thing I learned today: Go to the gym every morning. Just go.
One thing I'm grateful for: An extra day of weekend. And hooky buddies. :)
One thing I'm grateful for: An extra day of weekend. And hooky buddies. :)
November 6, 2014
One thing I learned today: It's pretty nice to feel normal.
One thing I'm grateful for: A reasonable amount of motivation.
One thing I'm grateful for: A reasonable amount of motivation.
November 5, 2014
One thing I learned today: "It's a medium of entertainment which permits millions of people to listen to the same joke at the same time, and yet remain lonesome." -TS Eliot, on television
One thing I'm grateful for: The terrifying knowledge that I'm ready to commit to truly living by my values. Let the Games begin.
One thing I'm grateful for: The terrifying knowledge that I'm ready to commit to truly living by my values. Let the Games begin.
November 4, 2014
One thing I learned today: "You buy furniture. You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled. Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you." - Chuck Palahniuk
One thing I'm grateful for: Waking up.
One thing I'm grateful for: Waking up.
November 3, 2014
One thing I learned today: I HATE texting and social media. I hate screens. I truly do. They are just addictive forces that pull me back in, but I worry if I abandon them, I won't be able to find the other souls who want to truly connect. That I'll just be greeted by a hundred other faces downcast, glowing in the light of screens.
But regardless, this machine goes tomorrow.
One thing I'm grateful for: That I'll never do this again.
But regardless, this machine goes tomorrow.
One thing I'm grateful for: That I'll never do this again.
November 2, 2014
One thing I learned today: The apathy is the worst part. Unbearable, loud, gut wrenching, raw, cutting emotion isn't half as scary. The apathy though - the apathy scares me.
One thing I'm grateful for: That someone knocked on my door and got me out of the house today. To anyone else reading this, I'll need more of that for the next few months.
One thing I'm grateful for: That someone knocked on my door and got me out of the house today. To anyone else reading this, I'll need more of that for the next few months.
November 1, 2014
One thing I learned today: I need to let it go a little bit. There's no way I can really win with my current strategy.
One thing I'm grateful for: Hearing something I could relate to. Someone who challenges me. The growth I've already achieved. Someone else's writing - you reminded me to go back and read about my own past struggles, and there turned out to be a lot of wisdom in those pages, as there was in yours. You helped me feel less alone. Learning (again) that space is important to communication. Hope. Knowing that family is thinking of me. A new month - I don't think I will ever stop loving fresh starts. An extra hour of rest when I really need it. Hope. Letting things be for now. Seeing myself in someone else and in watching him wrestle with his own mind, realizing for the thousandth time how important self-compassion is. Not judging myself for spending most of the day at home, because this is what is right now.
Hope.
One thing I'm grateful for: Hearing something I could relate to. Someone who challenges me. The growth I've already achieved. Someone else's writing - you reminded me to go back and read about my own past struggles, and there turned out to be a lot of wisdom in those pages, as there was in yours. You helped me feel less alone. Learning (again) that space is important to communication. Hope. Knowing that family is thinking of me. A new month - I don't think I will ever stop loving fresh starts. An extra hour of rest when I really need it. Hope. Letting things be for now. Seeing myself in someone else and in watching him wrestle with his own mind, realizing for the thousandth time how important self-compassion is. Not judging myself for spending most of the day at home, because this is what is right now.
Hope.
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