February 29, 2016

One thing I learned today: Don't underestimate people.

One thing I'm grateful for: A doctor.

December 30, 2015

One thing I learned today: Disappointment in self will only dig a deeper hole. No need to make this be more than what it is.

One thing I'm grateful for: 24 hours

October 3, 2015

Today was a hard day.

Four and a half hours of sleep were not enough to prepare me to see her face. Her hand, frozen in a position ripe for holding. Her hand moving toward my face as my labmate raised her arm to make way for his scalpel. I sliced off her breast and put it in a plastic bag to save for later. It felt wrong to toss the other in the waste bin, to separate the two. Later, in the shower, I would look down at my own breasts and imagine them being cut away, now knowing what they looked like inside.

Four and a half hours were not enough.

Spent the evening with warm, loving people. But when I close my eyes I see fascia. The split tree trunk on the side of the road is the long and lateral heads of the triceps brachii. And every time someone passes me a dish at the dinner table tonight, I see her hand.

September 22, 2015

One thing I learned today: It's game on. Not looking forward to this.

One thing I'm grateful for: School.

September 21, 2015

One thing I learned today: Still lonely.

One thing I'm grateful for: Thank god my hair grows quickly. Now just how to find a better hairdresser...

September 20, 2015

One thing I learned today: "Go out by yourself and do something ridiculous. The only way to break out of the box of the mundane and monotony. Practice taking yourself out and try striking up a convo with ten different strangers. 9 people might brush you off and thats totally fine, and the tenth person might end up becoming your best friend. Who knows. But go out there. Put on a picachu hat and sit in the middle of a bar if you have to, as long as by the end of the day you can go home feeling really good, knowing you did something absolutely ridiculous."   - Bill Clinton, 1994

One thing I'm grateful for: Not being alone. 

September 19, 2015

One thing I learned today: Speak of the devil and he shall appear.

One thing I'm grateful for: My potentially 4th sugar-free day in a row.