April 29, 2014

One thing I learned today: This is harder than I thought.

One thing I'm grateful for: My social planner. (And Aziz!)

April 28, 2014

One thing I learned today: "It’s important to push ourselves out of our comfort zones. Otherwise we’d never do anything. But it’s also important to make sure we’re going for something that we do want and not just fighting against our natural way of being for the sake of it."

One thing I'm grateful for: Veggies.

April 27, 2014

One thing I learned today: Stick to your routine.

One thing I'm grateful for: Friends who steer me right.

April 26, 2014

One thing I learned today: I guess naps aren't all that bad.

One thing I'm grateful for: Nothing beats a good prank. ;)

April 25, 2014

One thing I learned today: "We get out of the box by stepping into shackles."

One thing I'm grateful for: Rituals.

April 24, 2014

One thing I learned today: It was silly to be so scared about taking time off.

One thing I'm grateful for: The opportunity to take an extended time off to get healthy. EVERYONE should get this.

April 23, 2014

One thing I learned today: I can see how this might work out in the long run.

One thing I'm grateful for: I couldn't ask for a better, more supportive boss. And in general, I work with some truly impressive human beings.

April 22, 2014

One thing I learned today: Whether it's this summer or next, I will miss this job far more than I expected when I leave.

One thing I'm grateful for: Getting to see one of my favorite patients today.

April 21, 2014

One thing I learned today: I remembered just how much I LOVE cleaning and throwing things away!

One thing I'm grateful for: My newly organized desk space!

April 20, 2014

One thing I learned today: I do care, and I'm very sad about what's happened.

One thing I'm grateful for: Waking up - as intense as that is.

April 19, 2014

One thing I learned today: Woahhhh may have swung too far in the other direction.

One thing I'm grateful for: What that feels like - enjoying it for today at least.

April 18, 2014

One thing I learned today: Don't phone it in with Biggie. You don't get much that way.

One thing I'm grateful for: Permission to go full OCD. #healthbender2014 is on.  (...in a week)

April 17, 2014

One thing I learned today: Sleep, you are one tricky mofo.

One thing I'm grateful for: Getting a sense of what manipulating my sleep can do.

April 16, 2014

One thing I learned today: "Let these demons become paper tigers in the open sunlight."

One thing I'm grateful for: An environment where I can do that. I think I've taken that for granted a little bit - I've been very lucky.

April 15, 2014

One thing I learned today: "In many ways, a person who has emerged from the grip of depression has just passed the most severe of trials in the human experience. If we acknowledge that surviving depression requires a special toughness, we will see not see formerly depressed people as a broken legion, but as a resource who can teach us all about overcoming adversity."

One thing I'm grateful for: A little (albeit jittery) boost.

April 14, 2014

One thing I learned today: It's not an easy road ahead.

One thing I'm grateful for: Someone who shares my VERY dark sense of humor.

April 13, 2014

One thing I learned today: Don't overdo it right now.

One thing I'm grateful for: Catching up with a very good friend.

April 12, 2014

One thing I learned today: End goals are overrated.

One thing I'm grateful for: Friends to talk to.

April 11, 2014

One thing I learned today: I've been afraid of the wrong thing all this time.

One thing I'm grateful for: Walkin' & talkin'.

April 10, 2014

One thing I learned today: I was not prepared to deal with the realities of today.

One thing I'm grateful for: Some straight talk.

April 9, 2014

One thing I learned today: I have a massive B12 deficiency and my adrenals are totally kicked. No wonder I've been so exhausted!

One thing I'm grateful for: Some new information that will help me improve my health.

April 8, 2014

One thing I learned today: Don't listen to people who don't have any clear, direct evidence to back up their advice. Even well-intentioned fear mongering is still fear mongering.

One thing I'm grateful for: Seeing patients.

April 7, 2014

One thing I learned today: Don't build up too much activity too quickly.

One thing I'm grateful for: Some productivity at work today.

April 6, 2014

One thing I learned today: To everyone who told me that life is just hard, that I was just focusing on my problems too much, that I just needed to think positively, who invalidated the fact that I have been dealing with something very real and very serious - a giant fuck you. I'm done making excuses for people who don't understand. It's not my job to be understanding of your ignorance. It's your job to learn more. And for those reasons, I refuse to censor myself. Tough shit if it makes you uncomfortable. You are the reason stigma exists and your words are not innocuous. They are dangerous.

One thing I'm grateful for: That I woke up angry today. And for the motivation those I refer to above have provided me, because there are few things I love more in this world than proving people wrong.

April 5, 2014

One thing I learned today: Acceptance is hard.

One thing I'm grateful for: "Then we are friend - we must overcome." -TH

April 4, 2014

One thing I learned today: This is ridiculous. Literally ridiculous.

One thing I'm grateful for: Lil Shorty x1,000,000. Sole voice of reason today.

April 3, 2014

One thing I learned today: Apparently no one has answers for me, since nobody likes to talk about this. Everyone is covering their asses, which means we can never collectively remove the fear of being affected by stigma.

One thing I'm grateful for: Determination, even if it's backed by very little energy right now.

April 2, 2014

One thing I learned today: Things won't improve until I take a real break.

One thing I'm grateful for: A friend going out of her way to help me right now. I can't thank her enough.

April 1, 2014

One thing I learned today: I need to show myself the same courtesy and kindness I would give patients.

One thing I'm grateful for: The incredibly good fortune to work for someone with compassion and understanding.