December 18, 2013

One thing I learned today: What I want for myself in 2014 - and since part of that is to be more open and vulnerable, here it is:

I want to grow more as a person. I want to work hard through therapy and come out feeling great about my body and owning my sexuality. I want to be more open and vulnerable with others, and also become stronger. I want to learn to fight - both literally and figuratively. I want to take care of myself not because I am following rules or want to look good, but because I care about my long-term health and know what is best for my body and want to honor that, even if it means going against the grain. I want to wake up every morning and beast through a killer workout, meditate, and go into each day calm and confident. I want to end each day knowing I gave it my all and honored myself by doing my best work. I want to be bolder and assert my opinions without worrying what others think, to be confident in my intelligence and eloquence, and to embrace feminism and set an example for other girls and women to NEVER shrink down. I want to be still enough to sit and read a book again, to just be - I want to relearn to be truly present. I want to honor my relationships and be a better friend and daughter, and continue to learn that time spent with others is rarely time wasted and will make me successful at what truly matters - living. I want to have FUN and remember that doing so comes from within. Most of all, I want to start the journey to becoming a physician and never forget why I set out to do it or lose my humanity along the way.

One thing I'm grateful for: All of you who have taken the time to read my ramblings over the past couple of years - I think I probably know most of you who read this in real life, and I've learned so much from you and really value having you in my life.